I learned about
the disaster after it occurred. Sitting in a
meeting two blocks away from the Capital in
Washington, DC, I heard about it when the
meeting was interrupted by an announcement about
10 AM that the Twin Towers in New York and the
Pentagon were hit by airplanes earlier in the
morning. Afterwards I could not believe my eyes
when I saw on TV the towers crumble as though
they were sandcastles randomly discarded by a
child. This had to be a dream, a nightmare, a
hallucination. Between this carnage and that of
the Pentagon (which was about two miles from
where I was) I knew that life would no longer be
the same for me. Both twin towers collapsed and
gone. The Pentagon, shuddered by the force of
the collision, exhibited a huge "V" shaped
crater in its armored side. A fourth jet was
missing and possibly heading for the Capital,
two blocks from me. For the first time I thought
that I might be in the omniscient path of
danger. I don't know why but I had to go out to
see that the Capital was all right.
Once outside it
seemed like a dream that just the day before I
walked to the Capital for the first time in over
twenty years and looked
-
really looked -
at the magnificence of the building. I counted
the steps to the top, 74, basked in the
spectacular view of the Washington monument and
pondered that these halls of Congress are the
epicenter of our country and all free countries
throughout the world. Now, on this sunny,
late-summer morning the building was evacuated
and barricaded, I could get no closer than the
outer perimeter and I saw F16s strafing the
skies of Washington. The very city of freedom,
our nation's capital city, was a war-torn armed
camp. And I felt insecure about life in the
America.
It's strange how
during a tragic event the mind wanders between
the present and the past, almost as a protective
mechanism to diminish the reality of the horror.
I remembered studying in junior high how the
British burned Washington during the War of
1812, but it had no relevance to me at that
time; it was merely an historical event that was
relegated to words in a history book. Now, being
in a similar situation almost 200 years later, I
wondered if the feelings I was experiencing were
the same that were felt by the citizens in
Washington back then. Is this how it felt in
London and Paris during World War II? Is this
how it was in Hiroshima and Nagasaki? Is this
how it always feels in Israel? Then the reality
struck again; I could not believe those
majestic, strong, impenetrable towers were gone.
It was such an inconceivable event, as
surrealistic as a movie except it was real life.
There was no way this could have happened to us,
no way we could have let our guard down so much,
no way we should be facing this tragedy. I
wanted to find the terrorists and make them face
retribution for their evil, inhumane dastardly
crimes against my country and the citizens they
have literally destroyed. I also knew that I had
to leave for home.
The entire trip
back to New Jersey was eerie in that there was
no traffic on the road, almost like a Sunday
morning at 7 AM. It was uncanny to be in this
situation, knowing that thousands of bodies were
buried in New York and Washington and there I
was traveling on a beautiful day back to my home
to the security and serenity of my family.
The radio talk
shows kept me company and the individuals
calling into them appeared to be experiencing
the same feelings that I had; they were in
disbelief and wondered why and how this could
have happened. I noticed the absence of air
traffic, since all commercial aircraft was
banned, and found myself in a time warp where
the best source of transportation was not a
plane but a car. I was experiencing a second
reminiscent moment, one that was redolent of the
beginning of the last century. This is how the
people of that era traveled, by car or horse. In
fact, cars were still a novelty. Route 95 was a
dirt road running from Maine to Florida. Few
people had telephones; there were no radios or
televisions. No CNN, ABC, NBC, FOX.
Communication was not instantaneous, children
did not play Nintendo; there were no
supermarkets, shopping malls, Wal Marts or
shopping on the net. People were more wholesome,
ate better foods, drank cleaner water and
breathed cleaner air. They were more "genuine"
than we are today. Maybe they were also more
alert to danger and this horrible tragedy would
not have happened to them. But then again, they
had to be more alert because their lives were
filled with the specter of death from polio,
strept throat, enteric infections and an average
life span of only fifty. Maybe, on second
thought, they didn't have it so good after all.
As my mind
continued to wander I thought about how
technological and social evolution are integral
parts of our lives that we cannot be taken away.
Has technology made the world a better place?
Certainly. All the amenities we have in this
life are the result of advances made by great
people throughout the world. We have much to be
thankful for and in the great scheme of history
very little of which to complain. We are blessed
to be living in this era, serenaded for two
centuries by songs of freedom and prosperity.
Then the reality struck again: until some
misguided souls attempted to shatter our lives
by utilizing our greatest technological
achievements as guided missiles to topple the
institutions that represent freedom and
opportunity for anyone wanting to participate in
a democratic society.
My daydreams
were further shaken around dusk as I exited
Route 95 and started riding north on Route 287.
There, in the southbound lane, was a convoy of
20 flatbed trucks carrying bulldozers, cranes,
and earthmovers. Implements of our success now
being used as tools of salvation, traveling to
the 100-foot pile of fallen debris in the
streets of lower Manhattan where two of the most
majestic structures on earth stood less than ten
hours ago. Implements to remove the debris,
extricate those fortunate enough to have
survived the carnage, transport those less
fortunate to temporary morgues and to remind of
us all of the frailty of life and the
uncertainty that each day brings to us. I
reminisced, once more, of another beautiful
summer night many years ago in Central Park in
New York when an entire audience attending an
outdoor concert given by Don McLean, sang in
perfect harmony the words to his famous song:
I can't
remember if I cried when I heard about his
widowed bride
Something touched
me deep inside, the Day the Music Died
Bye, bye Miss
American Pie
Drove my Chevy to
the levy and the levy was dry
Those good ole boys
drinking whiskey and rye singing
This will be the
day that I die
This will be the
day that I Die
The music of my
world suddenly stopped on September 11th. It
will start again, but the songs will never be
the same. I only hope that this tragedy remains
a constant reminder of what happens when we fail
to guard our freedom. I hope it inspires good
people around the world to defeat evil by
whatever means is required and to replace it
with empathy. I hope it reminds all Americans
that altruism has always been the legacy of our
country and many of our ancestors have made the
ultimate sacrifice to protect its precepts. For
me it is time to defend their legacy, promote
altruism and inspire whomever I meet to
vigilantly protect freedom.
